A Final Say

As I write this entry, Oh Lord bless me with Your Holy Spirit's guidance. Lead me, Lord in Your ways of righteousness. In Jesus' most Precious name. Amen. This is going to be a long blog, please be patient. Thank you.

Update:
"80bucks," the phone bill read. Fuming anger was building up in my dad. Angst filled my brother's mind. But, they remained silent. A sense of guilt should be in my soul. No, I didn't feel that. I was feeling neutral, nothing. Perhaps I was playing computer that's why, it always takes me out of reality.

My brother, the computer freak was actually mad at me for spending so much money on the phone. Well, he's not wrong. However, I've been the one who has been patient with him. He's been stuck at the computer for ages. Whenever I'm in the house, I would see him pasted to the computer. Super Glued. Stucked. Whatever. Just angry that his whole life is revolving about the computer. Sigh...and now, he's the one mad at me. How ironic!

People say time flies. Well, I say money flies. Because time is equals to money. Ok, that's lame.(haven't been like that for quite some time.) Money flies like the dragonfly. Once it's gone, it's hard to catch it. It has many eyes to escape your grasp. As I was preparing for the sarawak trip, money just kept on disappearing without my check. Pay this, pay that. Look at the wallet again, EMPTY. Ask from my mother again for new income. Reality seeps in. Money is one of the blessings of God and if I learn to treasure money and use it wisely for God's glory instead of spending it on worldy things that will soon pass away. I began to felt the guilt as I see money vanishing before me very eyes. I felt the ache. The ache that causes splits open your heart when you spent your precious earned money. Ouch. Ouch. I've realised I really spent a lot of money already. sigh and I'm going to spend more during the trip.

What God has made me learn is that as one grows in faith, the one thing people will learn how to handle is money. Money is earthly treasure given by God's grace. There's a parable about the talent which God said in Matthew 25:14-30. Talent is money. Although it does not say about spending away the talents but my point is that I don't use God's blessing of money by multiplying it. I spend it recklessly without thinking. When I started thinking, it's too late. Please forgive me Lord, for my reckless spending. Bless me guidance from the Holy Spirit on issues of money. Thank You Lord for I trust in Your Holy counsel.

Mission Trip: Sarawak.
I've been called to proceed towards sarawak to aid a rural community there. Well, it's God's calling(hmm some of you may not understand this). Although He didn't speak to me vocally but He guides me without me knowing. I'm following His path. Through this trip, I hope to learn things to develop my character. Firstly, there will be a language barrier between my team and the natives there for they speak malay and their native language. I hope to learn how to develop good communication skills with my team and the people there. I want to practise serving people with sincerity. I believe God is leading me on this path of serving and He wants me to gain more experience in this area. With God's strength, I hope to develop patience and the attitude of servanthood. Through this, I hope to be more considerate and seeing to fulfil the needs of others as a true servant does, I hope to establish sincere fellowship with people, I hope to be more independent. I will learn to take care of myself and be responsible for my actions. I also would like to be blessed with understanding from the Holy Spirit to be sensitive enough to the feelings of the people I'll interact with. God's grace be with me always. Amen.

My mother asked me to bring my Bible along to the trip. Wow. That's something I'm pleased to hear. I didn't expect her to say that although she is discreetly against my relationship with God.
Well, things are turning up good. God is working in the hearts of my family. Salvation is to come. Amen.

Prayers:
Dear Father in Heaven, hallowed be Thy Name. Thy kingdom come, Thy will be done. Deliver us from the arms of evil and forgive us for our transgressions.

Cell members:
My dearest brothers and sister in Christ(Wow, I feel like Paul writing a letter.), I pray the Lord will keep you in His protective care and He will continue to light the fire of passion in you all. Let this flame burn strongly within their souls for You, Oh Sovereign Lord. I pray that the Holy Spirit will be your guidance in every step you take in your lives. May you surrender your hearts to God and let him take control of Your life. Things will never go wrong with Him in control. I pray Lord that You will take deeper into authentic fellowship with one another and continue to use them to strengthen each other's faith, to comfort, to encourage, to forgive and to love. I entrust them into Your care, lead them in your ways of righteousness and let the whole world know that they are Your disciples. May they reflect Your Glory more.

Fellow Church members:
My dear brothers and sisters, I pray that God will continue to speak into Your lives and reveal your strengths and weaknesses that you may submit to God these, and let Him use it for His glory. I pray God that they will continue to be humble, available and obedient towards You. Remove all spiritual earwax that is preventing them from hearing Your voice. Revive the hearts of who are spiritually dead. Bless the passionate with consistent spiritual fervor. I pray that God will continue to bless You will His love and may you all share His love to the people around your lives. Oh Lord, bless them with Your strength and renewed mind to do Your daily work You have assigned them to do and may they do it will a grateful heart and with the guidance of the Holy Spirit.

Team ACJC:
Dear God, to this dedicated team of servants who are going towards a survival training trip in Sarawak to help those people in need, I pray that You will bless us with renewed strength everyday. Bless us with the determination, perseverance and tenacity to strive on towards our goals and may You bless us with a gentle and sincere heart when we approach the natives there. I pray that Your angels will protect us from any injuries. May our time there be fruitful and may it bring glory to Your Name. I pray for understanding and cohesion in this team, I pray that by Your peace that You have blessed us with, we will resolve conflicts with peace and through this trip, we will continue to grow strong in our faith. Bless our path Oh God with Your safety and assurances. May we place our trust in You always and deliver us in times of need.

The Lost Sheep:
Dear Lord Jesus, I pray that You will continue to work in their souls. Let Your love penetrate deep into their hardened hearts. I pray that You will use circumstances to draw them towards their path of salvation. I pray that they will have more opportunities to witness, the courage to speak up, a rapid spread of the Good News and more servants rising up to redeem these lost sheep. Bless them with Your wisdom, God and let them be filled with Your knowledge and not the wisdom of this world. Guide them gently with Your hands. Into Your secure hands, I commit them.

ACJC classmates of light:
I pray that God's fire will continue to burn in you and you will ever be in spiritual fervor, seeking eagerly to honour and seek God. I pray that God will continue to water the faith plant in you all. Let His great love binds all of us together deeper in fellowship and may we be able to help each other in our spiritual lives. May we lead godly lives so that people may praise the Father in heaven for the light they see in us. Bless us with Your peace always when we do Your work. Continue to sow seeds in our hearts and may we yield good fruit. Thank You God for watching over my classmates.

A story by me:
Our lives is like a driving a car. From young, we slowly learn how to drive this car and we are very slow learners. We are striving to be perfect in our driving skills everyday from the experience we are picking up. In this road called life, we drive this car. We drive as we like, there are many routes that we can turn to. Some routes are good, some routes are bad. Although there are road signs that warns us, we can choose to risk our safety for the benefits of that route(s). These rewards may not do good to your car and in fact may cause long term damage to your cars. There are roads that are deceiving and they lead us into danger. But one thing we know, we never what is at the end of the road. That's why we need an experienced driver in our life.Well, the happy thing is, I know this driver. May I introduce Him to you all. His name is Jesus! He knows all the routes. His streetwise nature transcends all things. He knows which routes are good and bad. The even happier news is, He is willing to drive your car for you for the rest of your lives that is if you give him control in your steering wheel. Ain't it great that we have such an experienced and streetwise driver? You need no longer need to worry about where to head in your life and in His hands, He will drive us safely unto the path road of light always. He loves us so much that He's always willing to drive our car if we seek Him. He doesn't wants us to be in danger because of His love for us but He can only enter your lives with your acknowledgement.
If you feel that you are always at a loss of where to head in your life, don't worry. For now, there's a solution. That's God. One condition is that You accept Him as Lord of your life.

My dear friends, I bid farewell to you. Take care of my sheep. I hope to see the good work God has done in your lives when I return. I'll be back on 4th december with more testimonies. Be excited in your anticipation. No worries about me because I have Jesus in me. Don't worry about my spiritual growth for it's a Christian community there. I'll be attending service there!Finally, God's Grace to be with you always. In Jesus' most Precious and Sweetest name, I pray. Amen.