Or my ego will inflate.
I don't know why. I woke up this morning and I felt an urge to blog this down. Yesterday was the release of A levels results. It all happened too quickly for my mind, body and soul to grasp the reality. I wish I could indulge more at that moment of brilliance, glory. Feels so good. But the glory aint mine. It belongs to God.
I wonder if anyone is reading this. It's been long time since I blogged. Well, if you happen to read this, leave a message ok? cool.
I wish I could upload this picture to display my result. It'a a picture of a pack of AAA energizer batteries. By telling this, can you guess what I got for my A levels??? I took 3 A level subject and 1 AO level, that's GP. If you still can't get it, I got 3 As and B3 for GP. I feel elated, like I could advertise for Nike air. Let me go back to that moment before I received that results.
Rewinding.
The Night before:
All's well. Feeling a little drowsy, so I slept well. Didn't worry or felt anxious about the release of results. Like I don't really bother. Just like a another normal day.
The Day of Glory:
I feltl lost. Somehow my heart has wandered off elsewhere. My body was physically present at the school hall but I felt weird, somewhat empty. Like there's something missing. I guess I don't really care what kind of results I would get. Just plainly can't be bothered. So I was there floating along with the crowd as they announced those who had distinctions. Graduadlly, I was awakened by reality. I started to feel nervous. (For the 1st time) And then, there was this voice inside me.
"So, do you think you will get 3As??"
I wanted to ignore it. I prayed and talked to my God.
"God, I wanted 3As and a B3 for my A levels and I claimed that gift in Jesus' name already. So, ask that voice to stop pestering me with lies."
The next thing I knew, I was being called to stage. I felt composed. Like I deserved it, like I expected it all along. I'm not being arrogant. But this was really how I felt. Confident. After every paper of the A level, I would feel good. Like I managed to scrap an A out of the paper. Like those kind of low A and nearly falling into B kind of results. However, I just felt I was confident of obtaining an A for every paper, excluding GP.
This is the first time, my first examination that I got what I wanted. Ain't that awesome??
I wanted 9 points for O level but I got ten and I got disappointed. Now, I got EXACTLY what I wanted. Feels so much like a dream...
I mean God, thanks to You. Since A level ended, I've been battling lies that worries me. Lies that goes on in my head that says, "Are you sure you can get 3 As?"
I just rebutted it, "I'm gonna ignore what you said because I claimed the 3As in Jesus' name already."
"but did God promised you that??"
"shut up! I believed He would bless me because I am confident of my efforts."
Just a little background information, I wasn't exactly like hardworking. I mean like those people who mug day in day out til early in the morning. I'm like those who sleep at 11pm consistently everyday. I'm more of a consistent kind of fellow. Those who does homework regularly. So it makes revision easier I guess, because most of the things I have it inside my brain already. But to have that kind of discipline, it's all God's effort. He made me such a person. My mom used to worry about me because she sees me playing computer everytime during the pre-exam period. My brother is very angry too about me playing so much. He's like, "He(me) better get good results or else I'm gonna whack him." I'm not trying to be a bad influence, to play so much before the A levels. It's just because I'm stressed. Seriously, I felt sick of studying. I wanted out, out, OUT!!! I don't want to study anymore. So, playing games was just my outlet for stress.
I deserve it right, God? I deserve the good results. Amen. After all that I went through, I thought it was only fair that I got these results.
Wow... 3As. So cool, like a dream. thanks to God.
