This is an account on what happened on 25/9/04
I, Ng Kian Kee, son, prince and servant of God report to Your Majesty. Holy is thy name, the heavens declares.
Niap was once the most hardcore skeptic I have ever met.Seriously. "I want to earn my own merit to go to heaven." and blah blah blah skeptics' viewpoints. But now, Christ has entered his life. I was compelled to write this entry even though in my tag board, I mentioned I was so pressed for time. Heart of steel, I must say of niap's past. Now a heart of passion and faith for the Lord. Continue to thirst for Him man, way to go. Deuteronomy 4:29 -"But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul."
Actually, I've discovered the best comes to those who least expects it. It just happened, too serious too soon. I didn't really catch up with his progress in this path of salvation. God works miracles. Praise to God. Seriously, I wasn't expecting his heart to be moved so soon. I thought it would takes years to move him. God touched his heart, He sent His everlasting love deep deep, down down, deep down in his heart. Oh yes, deep deep, down down, deep down in his heart. I was thinking of all the B.o.m.B members, he was the most extreme and difficult case. Little did I know, God planned Him to be seventh member to accept Christ. 7 down, 3 more to go. Ruilin, wen bin and wei kean. It just feels so much like counting down, and when it is zero, a blessing will "explode" into this group of friends. Niap is changing, one day, he will not be what he was in the past. A great testimony for You, My LORD. Continue to mould him.
It was service. When Ps. Mak prayed for the unsaved people, our eyes were all close. But I was naughty. I peeked. I peeked at niap. Once Ps. Mak finished saying his invitation, niap's hand shot up in a flash. wow, so enthu sia. Ya, he was consolidated and so on and so forth, got his bible, registered his particulars. There is the baby christian fire, burning within him. He took the Word and started reading on the bus, in the past, he wouldn't believe what the Word says is real. I was so touched by God. Oh God, You work mighty wonders. He smsed me a few days ago, "God rocks! I love praying." wow again. God's already answering his prayers. That's the assurances He gives to the non-Christians. Thy will be done in him.
I want to share my experiences. Facing a hardcore skeptic(anyway, hardcore is a relative term for you and me) requires tonnes of patience, gentleness and compassion. At times, I really want to smack him, rejecting me all the time. I don't like rejection anyway. I want to knock some sense into him. His teachability level was low last time, ignoring every word I said. Sometimes I just felt like giving up, it was just like talking to a sack of potato but the difference is that the potato debates with you. Kept on insisting he was right, always. I always wanted to reason and share the good news with him but I just don't have enough knowledge to counter his disbeliefs or perfect my argument. All I can do is just sigh, "how long more, Lord?" Sometimes, I feel like I'm wasting an sms just by inviting him to come church or wasting my saliva or getting unnecessary hurt. But melissa told me before, all that you had said will not be void. When you feel prompted to speak, respond to God's call. Pray for the power to speak, in Jesus' sweetest name. Sometimes, too much preaching spoils the brain. It will irritate people. There must be gentleness. Oh ya, never forget prayer move mountains. Matthew 17:20-21 "Because you have so little faith. I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, 'Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."21 But this kind does not go out except by prayer and fasting." And if that doesn't move that mountain, fast. Have patience. It takes time. "There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven."Ecclesiastes 3:1. Oh well, Mission accomplished my King. But that's not all, still have to follow up with him. Don't forget to THINK BIG too. P.U.S.H harder.
Dear Father in heaven, I want you to bless the new christians. Bless them with Your presence. I pray that You'll water the faith plant within them and watch over them. I pray that You will bless them with understanding of Your will and they will continue to grow in Your loving hands. Assure them Lord with Your promises and draw them closer and closer to You. I pray in Jesus' most High, Precious, Holy and Sweetest name. Amen.
Song stucked in my head:
Evermore my heart, my heart will sayAbove all, I live for your glory. Even if my world falls I will sayAbove all, I live for your glory. ----Hillsongs(Evermore)
Thought of the day:
One who seeks to understand others will never get understood by others.(Tell me if I'm wrong because 'never' may seem an absolute term)
P.S: I like this song. It's like the intermediate between very rock and the R&B kind. Mild rock, whatever you call it. I hope there's a genre for mild rock.
Sunday, September 26, 2004
Sunday, September 19, 2004
More More More!
This is an account of what happened on 18/9/04.
Dear God, Thank You for Your grace and Your ways. It was a day before Loo Loo's birthday. We had dinner with her after service and I had a chance to ask wei kean to come service. Yeah! Actually, I was happy that during service, Wei kean and niap were more involved in the service instead of their usual stoning. I think niap needs a Bible. He needs inspiration now, somehow I feel. May God provide and speak to him. Anyway, Wei Kean was singing his heart out. Perhaps it's the first time I really heard him sing, it was really sincere. Praise to God. God saw his heart and His face shined upon the true worshippers. Niap was like raising his hands and going amen amen in response to the pastor. Wei Kean threw lots of questions at me. Thank God, I was able to answer most of his queries. "Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to answer every one." - Colossians 4:6. Glad that he was interested in experiencing new stuffs, he even took my bible and ask about things. God is working! =) Dank u,God. Merci. More Lord, More! More of You and MORE people coming church!
I saw a vision. Thank God. He finally gave me a clear instruction on whom to touch, to be in my tribe. When Ps Khong was praying, inviting the Holy Spirit into our souls. I felt like my hands just changed its position to a position of receiving. Then, a sword landed on me. Silver blade, gold and black grip. Near the handle, there were red and blue colours orbiting round it. Then after revolving for a while, the colours entered my body. I understood the vision. Thank God for answering my prayers on directions in life. Halleujah.
Dear Father in heaven, I pray that You will bless me a right attitude to do things for You and in everything that I do, I would do in a Christlike manner. Conform me to be like You. Bless me with compassion, patience, gentleness, humility, peace, strength and love. So that I can touch the ministry You have assigned me to. In Jesus most High, Precious, Holy and Sweetest name.
Song stucked in my head:
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the oceanA vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am I am Yours , I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
---- Casting Crowns( Who Am I)
P.S: I find the lyrics touching, do you?
Dear God, Thank You for Your grace and Your ways. It was a day before Loo Loo's birthday. We had dinner with her after service and I had a chance to ask wei kean to come service. Yeah! Actually, I was happy that during service, Wei kean and niap were more involved in the service instead of their usual stoning. I think niap needs a Bible. He needs inspiration now, somehow I feel. May God provide and speak to him. Anyway, Wei Kean was singing his heart out. Perhaps it's the first time I really heard him sing, it was really sincere. Praise to God. God saw his heart and His face shined upon the true worshippers. Niap was like raising his hands and going amen amen in response to the pastor. Wei Kean threw lots of questions at me. Thank God, I was able to answer most of his queries. "Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to answer every one." - Colossians 4:6. Glad that he was interested in experiencing new stuffs, he even took my bible and ask about things. God is working! =) Dank u,God. Merci. More Lord, More! More of You and MORE people coming church!
I saw a vision. Thank God. He finally gave me a clear instruction on whom to touch, to be in my tribe. When Ps Khong was praying, inviting the Holy Spirit into our souls. I felt like my hands just changed its position to a position of receiving. Then, a sword landed on me. Silver blade, gold and black grip. Near the handle, there were red and blue colours orbiting round it. Then after revolving for a while, the colours entered my body. I understood the vision. Thank God for answering my prayers on directions in life. Halleujah.
Dear Father in heaven, I pray that You will bless me a right attitude to do things for You and in everything that I do, I would do in a Christlike manner. Conform me to be like You. Bless me with compassion, patience, gentleness, humility, peace, strength and love. So that I can touch the ministry You have assigned me to. In Jesus most High, Precious, Holy and Sweetest name.
Song stucked in my head:
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the oceanA vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am I am Yours , I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
---- Casting Crowns( Who Am I)
P.S: I find the lyrics touching, do you?
Friday, September 17, 2004
Trust God, Once Again...
This is an account of what happened on 17/9/04.
I was doing the dreaded project work at the school library and I absent-mindedly left my EZ-link card at the library as a identification card to register the use of a computer. I left school without knowing my EZ-link card was still at the library. When I was boarding the the bus 74, I tapped my card as usual, but I heard the "tap" sound. I think it was too much of a coincidence too that my friend tapped his card at the same time and me. I didn't even bother to check the EZ card reader and it just didn't occur to me that I was without my ez-link card.
I alighted at my bus stop at sunset way to transfer to 184 or 75. When I alighted, I saw 184 right in front of me, I didn't bother to rush for the bus as it was leaving. I guessed I'll be taking 75 home. 75 came soon and I boarded bus. I tapped my wallet at the EZ- card scanner. Once, twice, thrice but to no avail. There just wasn't the "acknowledgement" tap sound. Then, it just occurred to me that I forgot to take my EZ-link card again. Sigh... and I was super broke. After all the money spent on class fund, prezzies and expenses all I had was a miserable twenty cents. Not even sufficient for a bus ticket. I felt disappointed that I could be so forgetful. I closed my eyes and prayed," OH God!!! Make a way for me!"
Following, I left my shocked, disappointed, embarrassed state and approached the driver. At that time, the lights were red and the bus was still kept at the bus bay.
I told the uncle in mandarin, "Uncle, I forgot to bring my card. Can you... (open the door for me?)"
Before I could finish my sentence, he interrupted me,
"It's ok. Sometimes people just are misfortunate. You get seated down."
"Thank you uncle, but I only have twenty cents with me."
"It's ok. You pay the twenty cents and I'll issue you a ticket. Otherwise, a bus inspector may scold you if you didnt have a ticket if he happens to come along this bus."
"Thank you, uncle. Thank you."
Imagine. If that bus driver didn't allow me to board the bus, I would be seriously seriously stranded on that bus stop. What I could do with 20 cents? And my nearest help would probably be my father who was at home, 30 mins away from my stop. I had no instant relief. I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really want to thank God. I am filled with gratitude. Thank You Lord , for delivering me. Really, with my sincerest thanksgiving to Your name. Praise God for He is good, His love endures forever. Such a kind soul, that bus driver, filled with understanding. I always thought bus drivers were grumpy as they repeated their journey everyday, it would be highly likely they got bored and fed up. Too good to be true. It's a miracle. I can imagine myself at that bus stop cursing myself for being so forgetful and being bitter over such an issue. God is a God of miracles. Hallelujah. You rock my world. Just trust God and have faith that He will deliver. Arigato God for answering my prayers.
Dear Father in heaven, let everything that has breath praise You. You are wonderful, magnificent, glorious, kind, lovely and You work in mysterious ways I cannot see. I thank You for delivering me. Thank You for jenni, she made my day today. Thank God that I have sufficient money to fill my stomach. Thank God for everything. Bless me with Your eternal joy. In Jesus' most Holy, high, precious and sweetest name I pray. Amen.
Thought of the day : A true friend knows your worst yet still loves you.
Song stucked in my head:
I've finally found a reason for living. It's in giving every part of my heart to Him. In all that I do, every word that I that say, I would be giving my all just for Him.
We are the reason He gave His life, we are the reason that He suffered and died. To a world that was lost, He gave all He could give to show us the reason to live.
----Avalon (We are the reason)
I was doing the dreaded project work at the school library and I absent-mindedly left my EZ-link card at the library as a identification card to register the use of a computer. I left school without knowing my EZ-link card was still at the library. When I was boarding the the bus 74, I tapped my card as usual, but I heard the "tap" sound. I think it was too much of a coincidence too that my friend tapped his card at the same time and me. I didn't even bother to check the EZ card reader and it just didn't occur to me that I was without my ez-link card.
I alighted at my bus stop at sunset way to transfer to 184 or 75. When I alighted, I saw 184 right in front of me, I didn't bother to rush for the bus as it was leaving. I guessed I'll be taking 75 home. 75 came soon and I boarded bus. I tapped my wallet at the EZ- card scanner. Once, twice, thrice but to no avail. There just wasn't the "acknowledgement" tap sound. Then, it just occurred to me that I forgot to take my EZ-link card again. Sigh... and I was super broke. After all the money spent on class fund, prezzies and expenses all I had was a miserable twenty cents. Not even sufficient for a bus ticket. I felt disappointed that I could be so forgetful. I closed my eyes and prayed," OH God!!! Make a way for me!"
Following, I left my shocked, disappointed, embarrassed state and approached the driver. At that time, the lights were red and the bus was still kept at the bus bay.
I told the uncle in mandarin, "Uncle, I forgot to bring my card. Can you... (open the door for me?)"
Before I could finish my sentence, he interrupted me,
"It's ok. Sometimes people just are misfortunate. You get seated down."
"Thank you uncle, but I only have twenty cents with me."
"It's ok. You pay the twenty cents and I'll issue you a ticket. Otherwise, a bus inspector may scold you if you didnt have a ticket if he happens to come along this bus."
"Thank you, uncle. Thank you."
Imagine. If that bus driver didn't allow me to board the bus, I would be seriously seriously stranded on that bus stop. What I could do with 20 cents? And my nearest help would probably be my father who was at home, 30 mins away from my stop. I had no instant relief. I really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really want to thank God. I am filled with gratitude. Thank You Lord , for delivering me. Really, with my sincerest thanksgiving to Your name. Praise God for He is good, His love endures forever. Such a kind soul, that bus driver, filled with understanding. I always thought bus drivers were grumpy as they repeated their journey everyday, it would be highly likely they got bored and fed up. Too good to be true. It's a miracle. I can imagine myself at that bus stop cursing myself for being so forgetful and being bitter over such an issue. God is a God of miracles. Hallelujah. You rock my world. Just trust God and have faith that He will deliver. Arigato God for answering my prayers.
Dear Father in heaven, let everything that has breath praise You. You are wonderful, magnificent, glorious, kind, lovely and You work in mysterious ways I cannot see. I thank You for delivering me. Thank You for jenni, she made my day today. Thank God that I have sufficient money to fill my stomach. Thank God for everything. Bless me with Your eternal joy. In Jesus' most Holy, high, precious and sweetest name I pray. Amen.
Thought of the day : A true friend knows your worst yet still loves you.
Song stucked in my head:
I've finally found a reason for living. It's in giving every part of my heart to Him. In all that I do, every word that I that say, I would be giving my all just for Him.
We are the reason He gave His life, we are the reason that He suffered and died. To a world that was lost, He gave all He could give to show us the reason to live.
----Avalon (We are the reason)
Monday, September 13, 2004
THINK BIG
W.W.J.D = what would Jesus do?
P.U.S.H = pray until something happen.
I had an inspiration last month just that I didn't publish it. So here's my inspiration:
Trust
His
Instructions
N(&)
Keep
Believing
In
God
Amen.To the Christians out there! T.H.I.N.K.B.I.G. Praise to God. Praise looks good on You :)
Anyway, I just wanna thank God for what happened today. I looked green today, my form teacher said. Quite true, I felt like there were dumbbells on my eyelids, so heavy and tired. I was a little drowsy, got a little headache, felt weak. I was laying my head on the desk throughout the whole morning. Thank God that I had prayers to sustain me through. Felt better after people prayed for me, if not I was like quite sick and all that, sigh.. without energy it's difficult for me to love the people around me. I was more focused on my own needs, like, 'don't bother me, I'm tired' .I wonder if God ever felt weak before. Even if He did, He would just kneel down and pray for strength for He knows His strength comes from the Father.
Thank God that I didn't choke or swallow the fish bone while I was eating. Guardian angel was there moving the bones to my teeth so that I could feel it. haha. Thank God that I didn't fall off a chair during class because I was rocking it. thank you angel too. Thank God that I can walk properly because I saw this lame today, I sympathized her. Thank God for the strength and healing that lasted me through school. Thank God for the joyous conversation I had with my classmates during lunch. Arigato God.
Dear Father in Heaven, once again I looked upon the cross where You died. I'm humbled by Your mercy. Thank You for the cross and the torture Your Son went through during the darkest hour on earth. Clothe me with compassion, gentleness, humility, patience and love that binds all these together. I don't wanna waste another day without doing anything for You. Bless me, restore my strength. In Jesus' most Holy, Highest, Precious and sweetest name. I claim Your healing, strength and joy. Thank You God for hearing my prayers and interceding for me. AMEN.
Thought of the day: In life, don't complain. Look at the roses instead of the thorns in your life and give thanks to God in heaven.
Once again I looked upon the cross where You died...
P.U.S.H = pray until something happen.
I had an inspiration last month just that I didn't publish it. So here's my inspiration:
Trust
His
Instructions
N(&)
Keep
Believing
In
God
Amen.To the Christians out there! T.H.I.N.K.B.I.G. Praise to God. Praise looks good on You :)
Anyway, I just wanna thank God for what happened today. I looked green today, my form teacher said. Quite true, I felt like there were dumbbells on my eyelids, so heavy and tired. I was a little drowsy, got a little headache, felt weak. I was laying my head on the desk throughout the whole morning. Thank God that I had prayers to sustain me through. Felt better after people prayed for me, if not I was like quite sick and all that, sigh.. without energy it's difficult for me to love the people around me. I was more focused on my own needs, like, 'don't bother me, I'm tired' .I wonder if God ever felt weak before. Even if He did, He would just kneel down and pray for strength for He knows His strength comes from the Father.
Thank God that I didn't choke or swallow the fish bone while I was eating. Guardian angel was there moving the bones to my teeth so that I could feel it. haha. Thank God that I didn't fall off a chair during class because I was rocking it. thank you angel too. Thank God that I can walk properly because I saw this lame today, I sympathized her. Thank God for the strength and healing that lasted me through school. Thank God for the joyous conversation I had with my classmates during lunch. Arigato God.
Dear Father in Heaven, once again I looked upon the cross where You died. I'm humbled by Your mercy. Thank You for the cross and the torture Your Son went through during the darkest hour on earth. Clothe me with compassion, gentleness, humility, patience and love that binds all these together. I don't wanna waste another day without doing anything for You. Bless me, restore my strength. In Jesus' most Holy, Highest, Precious and sweetest name. I claim Your healing, strength and joy. Thank You God for hearing my prayers and interceding for me. AMEN.
Thought of the day: In life, don't complain. Look at the roses instead of the thorns in your life and give thanks to God in heaven.
Once again I looked upon the cross where You died...
Sunday, September 12, 2004
The Best Expression Of Love Is Time
This is an account of what happened on 11/9/04.
-11/9/04-
Life is indeed all about love. That's what my blog is about aye?
"Because God is love, the most important lesson he wants you to learn on earth is how to love. It is in loving that we are most like him, so love is the foundation of every command He has given us: Love others as you love yourself." -- Purpose driven life
That was my quiet time for the day before 11/9/04. Guess what? right after that, I had a instant test on what I have just learned. God is good. He makes me learn. Amen.
My mobile phone vibrated in my dark room, disturbing the tranquility I was indulging in. I was about to enter dreamland with God when God gave me a application test. It was a message from my friend. He was really desperate for help. He just missed an important call from the best friend of his crush and he had other problems too, which I will not state for the privacy of my friend.(if you know who I'm referring to, that's good.) Altogether, these accumulation of stress results in a wearing down one's physical self. He broke down, I guess. He was a total loss of what to do, all these problems like floodwaters, came pouring into his world suddenly took him by storm. He did all he could to help himself or the people he's supposed to. He was desperate, really.
I was quite unwilling at first to be stirred by such a message but I knew God's calling me. Mel said, for a proud person like him to turn to me, it may be a breakthrough. Quite True, Praise God. I was called for emergency support, I guess that's what giving your all for Christ is all about. I live for Him and is willing to do anything for Him. I conversed with my friend from 12am to 115am and if anyone understands me, you know that I don't like to stay up late. It makes me look real bad the next day, with swollen eyes and all. However, God honours what you do for Him, even though He wakes up in the middle of the night to do His will, He will bless you with sufficient strength to do His work and if you do it, He will reward you eternally. Thank You God for bless me with Your ever-sufficient grace that I may be able to be there for my friend when he's in need. I thank You that I have displayed Your love to him. That was the application test. To love. two words, so simple yet so hard to do without God's grace. It was because He first loved us that we love now. Loving is difficult, sometimes you have to cast aside your emotions to demostrate Christ's love to people and in certain circumstances, people do not understand you. You may be at the very verge of collapsing, but they do not know. However, let not Man know what you are doing. Your Father in Heaven will see what you do and will honour you.God's grace is sufficient, He will do ask you to do things beyond the grace He has given to you.
I get very grumpy when people wake me up in the middle of the night, I did felt very frustrated and at first, I did not seek to understand what my friend was feeling. Holy spirit spoke to me that I must be gentle, doing everything with love. It was quite difficult but prayers helped. Jesus was interceding for me, you see. Spiritual warfare was also going on during that time, God gave cover for me! =) My friend even asked me to stay away from him because he felt the devil manifesting in him and he's afraid that the devil may seek me as his next target.The devil?who is that?the teeny weeny one?small little guy cannot harm me, for the devil has no power over those who believe in Jesus. Jesus is POWER. STAY CONNECTED.
At that time, I was very desperate too because I couldn't help. I surrendered myself to God and let Him work. I did not know what to pray for too, there was like infinite things to pray for but God knows all, He will intercede on my behalf for Romans 8:26-27 says, "26In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. 27And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will." Yeah, Jesus prayed for me but there were certain things I did not understand. My friend was a non-believer and I told him to pray because since he was so desperate, he doesn't mind trying anything. He prayed for a miracle. God didn't display His prowess. I guess the answer lies here: If one has not prayed the sinners' prayer. God will not answer their prayer. I gave him the sinners' prayer in short, that's why no miracle I guessed. God works in mysterious ways that we humans do not understand. He had a better purpose for not working miracles that time I believe. So friend, if you happen to be reading my blog. You can choose to believe there's no God since He didn't answer your prayer or work miracles before you. Did you know millions of people out there are waiting for a miracle to happen in their lives before they come and acknowlege God? Even if miracles happen, it is not 100% sure that they will bow down and confess He is Yahweh. That's what happen to the people in Israel, God delivered them once and once again but they still doubted and complained about Him. That's the reason why I suppose God didn't perform miracles. "He answered, "A wicked and adulterous generation asks for a miraculous sign! But none will be given it except the sign of the prophet Jonah"" - Matthew 12:39. Certain things are not in God's will and that's why He will not answer those selfish prayers.
I rushed during touchkidz to another emergency support call from God, for the same friend.So much so for the last goodbye.Thank God for the people there which managed to persuade him and reveal where his blindspot him. I hope they had knocked some sense into him. Just to let you know, we love You, we'll always be there for you.
I just thank God for the love, compassion, strength, protection, gentleness and all that my eyes cannot see. Thank You for interceding on my behalf. I honour You. I'm willing, Lord to serve you with my life. This application test started because since 10/9/04, I have decided to pray this daily, "Dear God, more than anything, I want to get to know You more intimately. I want to spend time loving You and Your people because that's what's life is all about. I don't want to waste this day."--Purpose driven life. Bless me with Your love that I may be able to demostrate Your love to the people around me. I know I have forgotten to show special love to some of the believers, forgive me. I pray I would be reminded not to leave anyone behind. Thank You, Lord. Thy will be done. In Jesus' most High, Holy, Precious and sweetest name. Amen.
Thoughts of the day -->
1: " The more time you give to something, the more you reveal its importance and value to you. If you want to know a person's priorities, just look at how they use their time."
2: " The essence of love is not what we think or do or provides each others, but how much we give of ourselves."
Jesus, I believe in You. I will go to the ends of the earth, to the ends of the earth for You alone are the Son of God, all the world will see. You are God, YOU ARE GOD. -To the ends of the earth (hillsongs)
-11/9/04-
Life is indeed all about love. That's what my blog is about aye?
"Because God is love, the most important lesson he wants you to learn on earth is how to love. It is in loving that we are most like him, so love is the foundation of every command He has given us: Love others as you love yourself." -- Purpose driven life
That was my quiet time for the day before 11/9/04. Guess what? right after that, I had a instant test on what I have just learned. God is good. He makes me learn. Amen.
My mobile phone vibrated in my dark room, disturbing the tranquility I was indulging in. I was about to enter dreamland with God when God gave me a application test. It was a message from my friend. He was really desperate for help. He just missed an important call from the best friend of his crush and he had other problems too, which I will not state for the privacy of my friend.(if you know who I'm referring to, that's good.) Altogether, these accumulation of stress results in a wearing down one's physical self. He broke down, I guess. He was a total loss of what to do, all these problems like floodwaters, came pouring into his world suddenly took him by storm. He did all he could to help himself or the people he's supposed to. He was desperate, really.
I was quite unwilling at first to be stirred by such a message but I knew God's calling me. Mel said, for a proud person like him to turn to me, it may be a breakthrough. Quite True, Praise God. I was called for emergency support, I guess that's what giving your all for Christ is all about. I live for Him and is willing to do anything for Him. I conversed with my friend from 12am to 115am and if anyone understands me, you know that I don't like to stay up late. It makes me look real bad the next day, with swollen eyes and all. However, God honours what you do for Him, even though He wakes up in the middle of the night to do His will, He will bless you with sufficient strength to do His work and if you do it, He will reward you eternally. Thank You God for bless me with Your ever-sufficient grace that I may be able to be there for my friend when he's in need. I thank You that I have displayed Your love to him. That was the application test. To love. two words, so simple yet so hard to do without God's grace. It was because He first loved us that we love now. Loving is difficult, sometimes you have to cast aside your emotions to demostrate Christ's love to people and in certain circumstances, people do not understand you. You may be at the very verge of collapsing, but they do not know. However, let not Man know what you are doing. Your Father in Heaven will see what you do and will honour you.God's grace is sufficient, He will do ask you to do things beyond the grace He has given to you.
I get very grumpy when people wake me up in the middle of the night, I did felt very frustrated and at first, I did not seek to understand what my friend was feeling. Holy spirit spoke to me that I must be gentle, doing everything with love. It was quite difficult but prayers helped. Jesus was interceding for me, you see. Spiritual warfare was also going on during that time, God gave cover for me! =) My friend even asked me to stay away from him because he felt the devil manifesting in him and he's afraid that the devil may seek me as his next target.The devil?who is that?the teeny weeny one?small little guy cannot harm me, for the devil has no power over those who believe in Jesus. Jesus is POWER. STAY CONNECTED.
At that time, I was very desperate too because I couldn't help. I surrendered myself to God and let Him work. I did not know what to pray for too, there was like infinite things to pray for but God knows all, He will intercede on my behalf for Romans 8:26-27 says, "26In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. 27And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will." Yeah, Jesus prayed for me but there were certain things I did not understand. My friend was a non-believer and I told him to pray because since he was so desperate, he doesn't mind trying anything. He prayed for a miracle. God didn't display His prowess. I guess the answer lies here: If one has not prayed the sinners' prayer. God will not answer their prayer. I gave him the sinners' prayer in short, that's why no miracle I guessed. God works in mysterious ways that we humans do not understand. He had a better purpose for not working miracles that time I believe. So friend, if you happen to be reading my blog. You can choose to believe there's no God since He didn't answer your prayer or work miracles before you. Did you know millions of people out there are waiting for a miracle to happen in their lives before they come and acknowlege God? Even if miracles happen, it is not 100% sure that they will bow down and confess He is Yahweh. That's what happen to the people in Israel, God delivered them once and once again but they still doubted and complained about Him. That's the reason why I suppose God didn't perform miracles. "He answered, "A wicked and adulterous generation asks for a miraculous sign! But none will be given it except the sign of the prophet Jonah"" - Matthew 12:39. Certain things are not in God's will and that's why He will not answer those selfish prayers.
I rushed during touchkidz to another emergency support call from God, for the same friend.So much so for the last goodbye.Thank God for the people there which managed to persuade him and reveal where his blindspot him. I hope they had knocked some sense into him. Just to let you know, we love You, we'll always be there for you.
I just thank God for the love, compassion, strength, protection, gentleness and all that my eyes cannot see. Thank You for interceding on my behalf. I honour You. I'm willing, Lord to serve you with my life. This application test started because since 10/9/04, I have decided to pray this daily, "Dear God, more than anything, I want to get to know You more intimately. I want to spend time loving You and Your people because that's what's life is all about. I don't want to waste this day."--Purpose driven life. Bless me with Your love that I may be able to demostrate Your love to the people around me. I know I have forgotten to show special love to some of the believers, forgive me. I pray I would be reminded not to leave anyone behind. Thank You, Lord. Thy will be done. In Jesus' most High, Holy, Precious and sweetest name. Amen.
Thoughts of the day -->
1: " The more time you give to something, the more you reveal its importance and value to you. If you want to know a person's priorities, just look at how they use their time."
2: " The essence of love is not what we think or do or provides each others, but how much we give of ourselves."
Jesus, I believe in You. I will go to the ends of the earth, to the ends of the earth for You alone are the Son of God, all the world will see. You are God, YOU ARE GOD. -To the ends of the earth (hillsongs)
Sunday, September 05, 2004
Let the trials commence!
It's the end of olympics, oh well, we have a new set of events. TRIALS!!! applause please.
This is an account that happened on 4/9/04.
-4/9/04-
I felt very happy yesterday. I didn't know why but on my way home, I started praying for the trees and the grass. 'Let everything that has breath praise the Lord!" It was the 7th lunar month, I was thinking will the trees that God created be possessed by the wandering evil spirits and let them treat them like temporary lodging places? I prayed that the trees will continue to sing praises to God and that they will continue to fulfil the purpose that God has given them.I hope there won't be any ricochet once I've sent this blessing out.
Lesson: If you really want to particpate in spiritual warfare, pray for your own protection first.
After worshipping along the way, I stepped out of my own lift and to the very door of my very own house. At that time, I was still indulging in my joy and worship that I didn't feel anything ominous. As I slowly unlock the door, I felt weird because I couldn't unlock the gate in front of my door. I tried and tried, then I knocked and rang the bell. When the door sprang open, I saw enraged Dad unlocking a padlock that was just attached to gate. He locked me out! The next thing I experienced was anger in my Dad's wake as he went to the store room and thrash the padlock in a drawer. He made lots of noise, displaying his exasperation. The last thing he said before he stormed back to the master bedroom was, "One day, I'll cancel your telephone line."
I definitely saw Medusa. All the joy that was within me just vaporised, escaping the very grasp of my desperate fingers. What came to fill my soul was anger, loss and depression. The Holy Spirit was within me and it has promised the gentleness, patience and peace within my soul, it had prevented me from acting out any irrational executions.
Quiet time was about 'The Heart of Worship', basically it was about surrendering to God, submitting to Him each day, trusting in His will more and more. It really applied to me. All I need now is more faith, trust and hope in my Lord Jesus Christ.Lord, I shall not pray, "comfort me, relieve me from this hour of torment and trial." But I will pray, "Conform me to be more like You. I shall place my hope and trust in You and await patiently the day of Your Glory. Thy will be done, not mine." (Reference to the prayer Jesus made in the garden of olives, before He died, when He felt so much fear before the awaited hour.)Thank You Lord Jesus, Thank You for this trial for I know You have plans for my good future and I have long awaited this trial. Thank You for this trial, Your blessing in disguise. Water the faith plant in me.
Pslams 130:5
I wait for the LORD , my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope.
-5/9/04-
I woke up this morning with mist in my head. God didn't give me a dream to interpret or recall.
"Wake up, it's ten. You have already slept for 9 hours! Don't be lazy!" My mom said.
Nagging started my day. Good morning God.What a day,I gave grace to God for vermicelli my mom bought. Thank God for the physical strength to last me throughout the day. After eating, I did prophetic stuffs. I helped my mom do her weekly chores by mopping the floor. This is all about serving God. However, one thing that I didn't please God was, I didn't speak to my mom at all.By the way, my dad went out for work early morning.I just nodded or shoke my head in response to her queries. I helped mom carry the oven and the egg mixer to the kitchen as she wanted to do her weekly 'dim sum' rountine. Did it without complaint. After that, I cooped myself in the room. I wanted to start "When Skeptics asks" but the book was very difficult to comprehend. I proceeded to playing 'the guitar'(boyfriend's) but after a while, my soul was filled with depression. I laid down on the bed and wept. High time since I last wept. God saw me. His heart was aching, but I understand it was for the best. I won't write about my problems in this blog unless it testifies Jesus' love for me. I cried over certain issues which I would not state unless it becomes a testimony. Anyway, I just felt my world crashing down again like I was left to stand alone in this world and darkness is knocking on my door. Nothing shall daunt me for there is still light in my soul. A gleamer of HOPE that still kindles within me, keeps from being strayed for I know and have tasted life without God. Filled with guilt and fear, barriers that stop you from receiving His love. I felt really really EMPTY. Now that I have this trial before me, I can't back out now and return to my old habitual ways. I want to perservere in this path of light, soaring with God on eagles' wings.Anyway, I prayed for patience, peace for my Dad last night and I guess God did His work(He always do.) After my Dad returned from work, He bought my favourite "zhu zhu bing",the biscuit made from leftover mooncake crust.
My mom commented, "Look at your loving father, look! He bought these for you. Shouldn't you be touched?"
I am touched. I know Daddy loves me. I know, I know, I know. His anger was appeased. YEAH!So much for the love God shows. God gave us parents to love us even though He knew from the very start the stark fact that it would be our parents who would be a barrier between God and us. Keep in mind, God's love overcome all things. ALL. ya, ALL. ALL! ALL! ALL!
-Issac-
For God, I've also decided to give up on computer games. No point indulging them, it's like flirting with tempations of the world and the devil smirks when I game. When I start to become idle, all the other temptations follow. After the forty day fast, I felt good. Holy and righteous like the devils in me rid of. After since I started to play again, I was back to square one. I don't want! I want God only.I pray that Lord I will continue to trust You and thank You in all circumstances in life, in all things I would give You praise. You deserve the most Lord, the most. Nothing that I ever do is ever enough to redeem for what You have done for me. I love you and I will trust You. Bless me with faith to endure through this time of trial and I will soar with You again. I want to be like Mount Zion and not be moved. My hope is in You, is in You.I will be still and know You are God.
In Jesus' Most High, Holy, Precious and Sweetest name I pray. And all God's children say,
AMEN.
Thought of the day: If you have high expectations from men that only God can meet, you are in for disappointment.
Hebrew 11:1 -"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see"
I'm a flower quickly fading, without Your love sustaining...
This is an account that happened on 4/9/04.
-4/9/04-
I felt very happy yesterday. I didn't know why but on my way home, I started praying for the trees and the grass. 'Let everything that has breath praise the Lord!" It was the 7th lunar month, I was thinking will the trees that God created be possessed by the wandering evil spirits and let them treat them like temporary lodging places? I prayed that the trees will continue to sing praises to God and that they will continue to fulfil the purpose that God has given them.I hope there won't be any ricochet once I've sent this blessing out.
Lesson: If you really want to particpate in spiritual warfare, pray for your own protection first.
After worshipping along the way, I stepped out of my own lift and to the very door of my very own house. At that time, I was still indulging in my joy and worship that I didn't feel anything ominous. As I slowly unlock the door, I felt weird because I couldn't unlock the gate in front of my door. I tried and tried, then I knocked and rang the bell. When the door sprang open, I saw enraged Dad unlocking a padlock that was just attached to gate. He locked me out! The next thing I experienced was anger in my Dad's wake as he went to the store room and thrash the padlock in a drawer. He made lots of noise, displaying his exasperation. The last thing he said before he stormed back to the master bedroom was, "One day, I'll cancel your telephone line."
I definitely saw Medusa. All the joy that was within me just vaporised, escaping the very grasp of my desperate fingers. What came to fill my soul was anger, loss and depression. The Holy Spirit was within me and it has promised the gentleness, patience and peace within my soul, it had prevented me from acting out any irrational executions.
Quiet time was about 'The Heart of Worship', basically it was about surrendering to God, submitting to Him each day, trusting in His will more and more. It really applied to me. All I need now is more faith, trust and hope in my Lord Jesus Christ.Lord, I shall not pray, "comfort me, relieve me from this hour of torment and trial." But I will pray, "Conform me to be more like You. I shall place my hope and trust in You and await patiently the day of Your Glory. Thy will be done, not mine." (Reference to the prayer Jesus made in the garden of olives, before He died, when He felt so much fear before the awaited hour.)Thank You Lord Jesus, Thank You for this trial for I know You have plans for my good future and I have long awaited this trial. Thank You for this trial, Your blessing in disguise. Water the faith plant in me.
Pslams 130:5
I wait for the LORD , my soul waits, and in his word I put my hope.
-5/9/04-
I woke up this morning with mist in my head. God didn't give me a dream to interpret or recall.
"Wake up, it's ten. You have already slept for 9 hours! Don't be lazy!" My mom said.
Nagging started my day. Good morning God.What a day,I gave grace to God for vermicelli my mom bought. Thank God for the physical strength to last me throughout the day. After eating, I did prophetic stuffs. I helped my mom do her weekly chores by mopping the floor. This is all about serving God. However, one thing that I didn't please God was, I didn't speak to my mom at all.By the way, my dad went out for work early morning.I just nodded or shoke my head in response to her queries. I helped mom carry the oven and the egg mixer to the kitchen as she wanted to do her weekly 'dim sum' rountine. Did it without complaint. After that, I cooped myself in the room. I wanted to start "When Skeptics asks" but the book was very difficult to comprehend. I proceeded to playing 'the guitar'(boyfriend's) but after a while, my soul was filled with depression. I laid down on the bed and wept. High time since I last wept. God saw me. His heart was aching, but I understand it was for the best. I won't write about my problems in this blog unless it testifies Jesus' love for me. I cried over certain issues which I would not state unless it becomes a testimony. Anyway, I just felt my world crashing down again like I was left to stand alone in this world and darkness is knocking on my door. Nothing shall daunt me for there is still light in my soul. A gleamer of HOPE that still kindles within me, keeps from being strayed for I know and have tasted life without God. Filled with guilt and fear, barriers that stop you from receiving His love. I felt really really EMPTY. Now that I have this trial before me, I can't back out now and return to my old habitual ways. I want to perservere in this path of light, soaring with God on eagles' wings.Anyway, I prayed for patience, peace for my Dad last night and I guess God did His work(He always do.) After my Dad returned from work, He bought my favourite "zhu zhu bing",the biscuit made from leftover mooncake crust.
My mom commented, "Look at your loving father, look! He bought these for you. Shouldn't you be touched?"
I am touched. I know Daddy loves me. I know, I know, I know. His anger was appeased. YEAH!So much for the love God shows. God gave us parents to love us even though He knew from the very start the stark fact that it would be our parents who would be a barrier between God and us. Keep in mind, God's love overcome all things. ALL. ya, ALL. ALL! ALL! ALL!
-Issac-
For God, I've also decided to give up on computer games. No point indulging them, it's like flirting with tempations of the world and the devil smirks when I game. When I start to become idle, all the other temptations follow. After the forty day fast, I felt good. Holy and righteous like the devils in me rid of. After since I started to play again, I was back to square one. I don't want! I want God only.I pray that Lord I will continue to trust You and thank You in all circumstances in life, in all things I would give You praise. You deserve the most Lord, the most. Nothing that I ever do is ever enough to redeem for what You have done for me. I love you and I will trust You. Bless me with faith to endure through this time of trial and I will soar with You again. I want to be like Mount Zion and not be moved. My hope is in You, is in You.I will be still and know You are God.
In Jesus' Most High, Holy, Precious and Sweetest name I pray. And all God's children say,
AMEN.
Thought of the day: If you have high expectations from men that only God can meet, you are in for disappointment.
Hebrew 11:1 -"Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see"
I'm a flower quickly fading, without Your love sustaining...
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