This is an account of what happened on 28/8/04.
It was service again! Guess what this time, Say Lin came! Ah zhong also brought along two of his classmates along. Thank God. I was least expecting say lin would come. I had invited him on many occasions only to hear disappointing rejections from him. I was about to lose my patience yesterday when he said he would try to come to church. Sigh, a lot more endurance, compassion and patience to have just to serve God.
Yesterday's sermon was about having a grateful heart. Pastor Khong says that being an ingrate is the biggest sin one could ever commit. I believe too. Father in heaven, I just wanna thank You so much for hearing my prayers. I know You have moved Your mighty hand on those who I have prayed for. Father God, I just pray that You would continue to work Your Good work within them, for I am powerless to change their hardened hearts. Lord, You love them so much that You gave them free will and yet You did not force them to love You but You want them to love You willingly. How depressing it is to love someone who does not love You back. I understood this statement. I commit them into Your loving Hands. Bless them with Your Love. Thank You Lord, for giving me Your peace and wisdom during the GP test. I did the best out of my other tests.YEAh~!!I wanna say a million thank Yous to You and Thank You is a word that never loses its effect. In Jesus' most High, Precious, Holy and sweetest name. Thank You for everything and the best is yet to come.Amen.
Every word of every story, Every star in every sky,Every corner of creation lives to testify.
For as long as I shall live I will testify to love.I'll be a witness in the silences when words are not enough.With every breath I take, I will give thanks to God above.For as long as I shall live I will testify to love --- Testify to love (Avalon)
Thought of the day:
Never seek man to satisfy the emptiness within your soul, rather seek God above all things. God will make sure He won't disappoint you and He will fill the emptiness within you.
For man are unfaithful but God isn't. For man are not always there but God is. Your love is steadfast, God. Your love is steadfast.
Sunday, August 29, 2004
Thursday, August 26, 2004
To do it or not?
I was on my way back after passing a "life transformer book", The Purpose Driven Life to jenni, I alighted from my bus 180 only to see my bus 960 right in front of me. I prayed, " Dear God, let me catch that bus. I want to go home quickly." It was a quick prayer, didn't have time to pray in Jesus' name. I ran towards 960 and knocked on the door of bus. The driver looks reluctant when he opened the door for me. Thank God that I managed to catch the bus.
On the bus, I saw this purple translucent plastic bag right in front of me. I felt that it was weird, it was kinda out of place. Just on one of the passenger seats. Then, I asked God, "Holy Spirit, Should I help to throw away this thrash?" I was curious and peered into it. I saw rubbish inside, a empty plastic bag which used to contain drinks. However, it triggered me to think even more, what if I throw away this bag and the bus driver mistook me for littering and eating on the bus which I didn't? Oh God, I don't want to be mistaken. I sat there and pondered over it. But I could feel the Holy Spirit speaking to me, gently and softly though I couldn't hear it clearly but it was urging me to dispose of that bag. In the end, drumroll please... I took the bag before I alighted and disposed of it and guess what? The driver smiled back at me!!! I didn't get mistaken. Yeah! I was gleaming after that because it just felt liked God smiled at me. It was pure bliss, like I did a little thing for God which He delights in. Do little things with great love God said. Praise God that I managed to put a smile on that driver and be able to glorify Him too.
Oh ya, when I was at jurong point, I saw this blind guy(i think) basking, playing his guitar and singing. His plucking of his guitar is good, I must admit. When I passed by him for the second time, after buying bread from BreadTalk, I had compassion for him and I donated whatever coins I had for him. I even donated 5cents. Haha. Thank You, Jesus. Jesus, I just wanna pray for my cell members. Give them Your Peace that surpasses all understanding and guard their minds against the devil's ploys. I pray that they will have the desire to know You more and more and more and more and they will delight in serving You. Oh God, conform them to be more Christlike. Father, I pray that You will guard their falls. Thank You, fill them with Your compassion and love. In Jesus' most precious, holy, sweetest name I pray. And all God's children say? Amen!
On the bus, I saw this purple translucent plastic bag right in front of me. I felt that it was weird, it was kinda out of place. Just on one of the passenger seats. Then, I asked God, "Holy Spirit, Should I help to throw away this thrash?" I was curious and peered into it. I saw rubbish inside, a empty plastic bag which used to contain drinks. However, it triggered me to think even more, what if I throw away this bag and the bus driver mistook me for littering and eating on the bus which I didn't? Oh God, I don't want to be mistaken. I sat there and pondered over it. But I could feel the Holy Spirit speaking to me, gently and softly though I couldn't hear it clearly but it was urging me to dispose of that bag. In the end, drumroll please... I took the bag before I alighted and disposed of it and guess what? The driver smiled back at me!!! I didn't get mistaken. Yeah! I was gleaming after that because it just felt liked God smiled at me. It was pure bliss, like I did a little thing for God which He delights in. Do little things with great love God said. Praise God that I managed to put a smile on that driver and be able to glorify Him too.
Oh ya, when I was at jurong point, I saw this blind guy(i think) basking, playing his guitar and singing. His plucking of his guitar is good, I must admit. When I passed by him for the second time, after buying bread from BreadTalk, I had compassion for him and I donated whatever coins I had for him. I even donated 5cents. Haha. Thank You, Jesus. Jesus, I just wanna pray for my cell members. Give them Your Peace that surpasses all understanding and guard their minds against the devil's ploys. I pray that they will have the desire to know You more and more and more and more and they will delight in serving You. Oh God, conform them to be more Christlike. Father, I pray that You will guard their falls. Thank You, fill them with Your compassion and love. In Jesus' most precious, holy, sweetest name I pray. And all God's children say? Amen!
Monday, August 23, 2004
God's Power TEST
-God's Power Test-
I had my GP(General Paper) Test today. Although I finished reading the whole of the GP package, I was still very unclear of the bits of information everywhere. The materials I was reading wasn't abosrbed 50% into my short-term memory and in the end, I went to the test with a unprepared heart.
Before the test, Jimmy called me along together with Aayush to pray on behalf of the class 1SC6. I guess after the prayer I felt better because of the assurance that God will bless the other people who are going to take the test. I prayed before the test too but I was afraid, scared that I wouldn't do well like the previous tests. When the test paper was delivered right before my very eyes, I stoned. Question 1, something regarding electorial candidates selecting their style of dressing according to market research. 'Electorial candidate, style of dressing, I had read this somewhere before but I didn't know where the answer was. After spending a futile 2 minutes searching for the answer to the question, I gave up and proceeded to the next question.Once again, I met Medusa. Oh my, the answer lay in the article which I didn't bother to read carefully.
I should have focused more on that article! Argh... whatever, daunted, I skipped the question 2 and along came question 3 which I skipped as well. I told God, "God, so my test results are going to be like the borderline cases again?" I sighed and prayed, "Lord, Bless me with Your Wisdom and open my eyes to reveal the answers to me." (I must pray and believe)
Wow,actually the first few questions were my blindspot questions which I did not focus on. The following questions were easy. I found the answers just lying right under my nose(quite true, the GP package was before me.) Haha and happily, I attempted all the following questions with ease and the miraculous thing is I began to know which article to find the answer and the answer came swiftly. I had never felt better after the test! It was the first time I had completed 95% of the questions. Praise to God. Hallelujah~!
Lord, You are the Living Water. I want You to cleanse my mind with Your Living Water. Let my thoughts be filled with grace and Your Perfect Love. Thank You Lord. I want to pray that You would thwart any demonic attempts to stop Your Word from being delivered to Cheryl and open her eyes and let her see Your Glory. Fill her with Your Purest Love, satisfy the emptiness in her soul. I commit her into Your hands. In Jesus, Most High, Precious, Holy and Sweetest name. Amen. Thank You, Jesus for hearing my prayers.
No one else can satisfy my soul,
make me feel this way,
only You Lord, only You...(How could I live without You)
I had my GP(General Paper) Test today. Although I finished reading the whole of the GP package, I was still very unclear of the bits of information everywhere. The materials I was reading wasn't abosrbed 50% into my short-term memory and in the end, I went to the test with a unprepared heart.
Before the test, Jimmy called me along together with Aayush to pray on behalf of the class 1SC6. I guess after the prayer I felt better because of the assurance that God will bless the other people who are going to take the test. I prayed before the test too but I was afraid, scared that I wouldn't do well like the previous tests. When the test paper was delivered right before my very eyes, I stoned. Question 1, something regarding electorial candidates selecting their style of dressing according to market research. 'Electorial candidate, style of dressing, I had read this somewhere before but I didn't know where the answer was. After spending a futile 2 minutes searching for the answer to the question, I gave up and proceeded to the next question.Once again, I met Medusa. Oh my, the answer lay in the article which I didn't bother to read carefully.
I should have focused more on that article! Argh... whatever, daunted, I skipped the question 2 and along came question 3 which I skipped as well. I told God, "God, so my test results are going to be like the borderline cases again?" I sighed and prayed, "Lord, Bless me with Your Wisdom and open my eyes to reveal the answers to me." (I must pray and believe)
Wow,actually the first few questions were my blindspot questions which I did not focus on. The following questions were easy. I found the answers just lying right under my nose(quite true, the GP package was before me.) Haha and happily, I attempted all the following questions with ease and the miraculous thing is I began to know which article to find the answer and the answer came swiftly. I had never felt better after the test! It was the first time I had completed 95% of the questions. Praise to God. Hallelujah~!
Lord, You are the Living Water. I want You to cleanse my mind with Your Living Water. Let my thoughts be filled with grace and Your Perfect Love. Thank You Lord. I want to pray that You would thwart any demonic attempts to stop Your Word from being delivered to Cheryl and open her eyes and let her see Your Glory. Fill her with Your Purest Love, satisfy the emptiness in her soul. I commit her into Your hands. In Jesus, Most High, Precious, Holy and Sweetest name. Amen. Thank You, Jesus for hearing my prayers.
No one else can satisfy my soul,
make me feel this way,
only You Lord, only You...(How could I live without You)
Sunday, August 22, 2004
Chapter 4: Reminiscent, No more.
For those of you who are reading, you may find it weird why do I start my story with Chapter 4. I will add in the previous chapters some other time or may be not all all. Anyway, this is supposed to be an account of what happened on 21/8/04.
-EXtremist saved-
It was the usual service day. However, there was something special I have to do today, something significant, something that is going to make an impact in the rest of my life. I'll leave the best for the last for now. Two weeks ago before the spookshow, DC and WH promised to go church yesterday. I suppose DC wanted to meet his chem lecturer in my church and WH probably just wanted to accompany DC and it was Niap's birthday on 20/8/04. So, we wanted to bring him out for a surprise and WH made him promise to attend service. Praise the Lord that He arranged a way for him to come. Although, I know there's not much change that is going to change niap yet, but I believe my Lord has done His marvellous work within him and by exposing him to service, God is changing His hardened heart bit by bit. I was so delighted yesterday that my brothers came for service and it was the FIRST time during service that I offered 10 dollars. I just felt that God deserved this amount of offering.
I didn't know DC's parents are christians and I didn't even know He had christian portraits at home and even a Bible. He was so zealous during service, maybe that was his usual self. Ever so extreme in everything that he do, that's why we called him 'The EXtremist'. He can take part in eXtreme sports for sure. He responded to the altar call for baby christians. Of all the people there, he was the 2nd least likely. Niap was first. I thought he was joking considering his extreme actions but he was serious and held none of his particulars back during consolidation session.I thanked God that he made this decision. Thank You, Lord for saving him and blessing him with the courage to respond to the stirring in his spirit. I was contented that WH was so attentive during service, he described to me how the sermon could be applied to his life. Although there are things holding him back from devoting his entire life to You, God almighty, I pray and believe one day, one day, one fine day, one fine day, he will take up this righteous path. Same applies to Niap too. Lord, I commit these people to Your Hands. Let Your perfect love fill their hearts and sastify the emptiness in their soul. Bless them with the Holy Spirit and guide them each and every step nearer and nearer to their salvation and greater glory. Lord, do Your good work in them and bless them with the wisdom to understand Your Word and open their eyes and let them see the wonderful Glory of God that is all around them. In Jesus' most High, Holy and Sweetest name I pray.
-Frozen wound-
Lord, I had sacrificed whatever that is going to be a burden to our relationship. I want to surrender my life to You because I know You care so much for me. I'm willing to do anything, anything for You.
I threw away whatever ex-lovers stuff I had in my drawer, not completely cleared though because I couldn't bring so much with me. I'm a psycho, boyfriend(I'm not homo) said as I wanted to dispose all these useless stuff in the church dustbin. Of all the places, the church dustbin.*laugh* Lord, I give You my heart. Guard it well, let me not fall for the devil's trap again. I had disposed of these things. Let Your healing work begin in me. Pour out Your Healing Grace onto me. Let it be a frozen wound no more, but a wound completely healed and without blemish. But Lord, let me remember this experience so that I could share my pain and feelings to other people and let them learn and grow through those difficult times. Lord, I know You love me so much that You hung there and died for me. I don't want anything to hinder our intimate relationship. I just want to worship You alone and not have any other 'gods'(Ps. Tan Hee Guan's sermon). Lord, use Your servant wisely. I commit myself into Your loving hands, conform me to be like Jesus Christ. Fill me with Your compassion, mercy, love, patience, peace, gentleness and wisdom. Let me understand the people around me and bless me with the Holy Spirit to guide me in order to help them. Let me glorify You. In Jesus' most high, precious, holy and sweetest name.
And all God's children say? AMEN!!!
For Your Love is higher than the heavens,
deeper than the sea,
all I want is You in my Life.(How could I live without You)
-EXtremist saved-
It was the usual service day. However, there was something special I have to do today, something significant, something that is going to make an impact in the rest of my life. I'll leave the best for the last for now. Two weeks ago before the spookshow, DC and WH promised to go church yesterday. I suppose DC wanted to meet his chem lecturer in my church and WH probably just wanted to accompany DC and it was Niap's birthday on 20/8/04. So, we wanted to bring him out for a surprise and WH made him promise to attend service. Praise the Lord that He arranged a way for him to come. Although, I know there's not much change that is going to change niap yet, but I believe my Lord has done His marvellous work within him and by exposing him to service, God is changing His hardened heart bit by bit. I was so delighted yesterday that my brothers came for service and it was the FIRST time during service that I offered 10 dollars. I just felt that God deserved this amount of offering.
I didn't know DC's parents are christians and I didn't even know He had christian portraits at home and even a Bible. He was so zealous during service, maybe that was his usual self. Ever so extreme in everything that he do, that's why we called him 'The EXtremist'. He can take part in eXtreme sports for sure. He responded to the altar call for baby christians. Of all the people there, he was the 2nd least likely. Niap was first. I thought he was joking considering his extreme actions but he was serious and held none of his particulars back during consolidation session.I thanked God that he made this decision. Thank You, Lord for saving him and blessing him with the courage to respond to the stirring in his spirit. I was contented that WH was so attentive during service, he described to me how the sermon could be applied to his life. Although there are things holding him back from devoting his entire life to You, God almighty, I pray and believe one day, one day, one fine day, one fine day, he will take up this righteous path. Same applies to Niap too. Lord, I commit these people to Your Hands. Let Your perfect love fill their hearts and sastify the emptiness in their soul. Bless them with the Holy Spirit and guide them each and every step nearer and nearer to their salvation and greater glory. Lord, do Your good work in them and bless them with the wisdom to understand Your Word and open their eyes and let them see the wonderful Glory of God that is all around them. In Jesus' most High, Holy and Sweetest name I pray.
-Frozen wound-
Lord, I had sacrificed whatever that is going to be a burden to our relationship. I want to surrender my life to You because I know You care so much for me. I'm willing to do anything, anything for You.
I threw away whatever ex-lovers stuff I had in my drawer, not completely cleared though because I couldn't bring so much with me. I'm a psycho, boyfriend(I'm not homo) said as I wanted to dispose all these useless stuff in the church dustbin. Of all the places, the church dustbin.*laugh* Lord, I give You my heart. Guard it well, let me not fall for the devil's trap again. I had disposed of these things. Let Your healing work begin in me. Pour out Your Healing Grace onto me. Let it be a frozen wound no more, but a wound completely healed and without blemish. But Lord, let me remember this experience so that I could share my pain and feelings to other people and let them learn and grow through those difficult times. Lord, I know You love me so much that You hung there and died for me. I don't want anything to hinder our intimate relationship. I just want to worship You alone and not have any other 'gods'(Ps. Tan Hee Guan's sermon). Lord, use Your servant wisely. I commit myself into Your loving hands, conform me to be like Jesus Christ. Fill me with Your compassion, mercy, love, patience, peace, gentleness and wisdom. Let me understand the people around me and bless me with the Holy Spirit to guide me in order to help them. Let me glorify You. In Jesus' most high, precious, holy and sweetest name.
And all God's children say? AMEN!!!
For Your Love is higher than the heavens,
deeper than the sea,
all I want is You in my Life.(How could I live without You)
Saturday, August 21, 2004
Love Letter From A Loving God.
But Jesus came to open my ears to another voice that says, ‘I am your God, I have moulded you with My own hands, and I love what I have made. I love you with a love that has no limits, because I love you as I am loved. Do not run away from Me. Come back to Me---not once, not twice, but always again. You are My child. How can you ever doubt that I will embrace you again, hold you against My breast, kiss you and let My hands run through your hair? I am your God---the God of mercy and compassion, the God of pardon and love, the God of tenderness and care. Please do not say that I have given up on you, that I cannot stand you anymore, that there is no way back. It is not true. I so much want you to be with Me. I so much want you to be close to Me. I know all your thoughts. I hear all your words. I see all of your actions. And I love you because you are beautiful, made in My own image, an expression of My most intimate love. Do not judge yourself. Do not condemn yourself. Do not reject yourself. Let My love touch the deepest, most hidden corners of your heart and reveal to you your own beauty, a beauty that you have lost sight of, but which will become visible to you again in the light of My mercy. Come, come, let Me wipe your tears, and let My mouth come close to your ear and say to you, ‘I love you, I love you, I love you.'
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